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Inspiration

murdercakes — 2010-04-21T23:06:00Z

so theres this girl megan i met her about ohhh maybe a year ago
and we used to hang out but we lost touch and havnt hung out that
much lately let alone at all...she has had the most shittest life yet she
still finds the time to put a smile on her face and help other people out
shes theres for u the moment she meets u and she will change ur life
and possibly ur views on everything...she is my inspiration my reason
to live and keep moving forward she has changed my view on a lot of
things and showed me that u cant live life unnoticed u cant give up; u
gotta do what u want how u want u cant let anyone control u

This is what she wrote:
I went for a walk and I found a girl crying
I sat with her and offered her a cigarette
and asked her why she was so sad this early in the day
she said she came home to find her boyfriend with another
girl and she has no place to go because he won't let her in her own house
she told me she's had an eating problem that no one not even god knows about except me now
she told me she can't find faith in anything anymore and she's struggling two jobs
with a coke addiction and she only loves him
she told me she's willing to take him back because she loves him
she told me she hasn't slept and she thinks she's depressed but she loves her life
she told me she's wanted to cry for weeks and it all came crashing down tonight
she appologized for smoking my cigarettes and ruining my walk and I told her my name is Megan,
I am a friend, and my cigarettes are now yours just as much as mine
I told her I wanted to walk to find something because my life is about to crash
and I too cried over someone tonight, and that my two bestfriends died a year ago now so
I've gotten used to telling myself everything is going to be better

I gave her a hug and another cigarette
and she smiled and said the world should be
full of people like you, and I told her the same
person cannot better the world but for real
people like you, I'll do my best

true story. can't sleep. smoking. sick.
and not as lonely anymore

Hate

murdercakes — 2010-04-21T23:04:00Z

So ill tell you right now this is inspired by the movie MILK i just watched it.

"My name is Harvey Milk and I'm here to recruit you!"
hate more then anything is a strong word
i myself haven't used the word hate to any person
and i have refused to use it in a long time
like any other person i use the word hate very freely
i hate when people annoy me i hate when there are long lines
i hate that i will never be able to know all the secrets in the world
but more then anything i HATE that people hate
it bugs me so bad when a person can go around
saying they are white power...what in the world makes u so much better?
why hate a person for their differences
for how they act how they believe how they feel
ITS WRONG
i cant stand that people can sit around and discriminate so much
that people can be racist we all came from the same thing
weather u believe in god or evolution all and all we all
came from the same creator
"All men are created equal. No matter how hard you try, you can never erase those words."

prop 6 was passed today there are more gay lesbians and transgender people
if prop 6 was passed back then i know we can do it to pass prop 8
NO ON PROP HATE!!!!!!
i believe that every single person should have their rights
and we should not be allowed to take that away
i don't care if ur christian and don't believe in gay marriage
its not ur right to decide who marries who and who
can fall in love with who, u believe what u believe
and they should have the right to believe what they believe

so tell me please what makes a person better then another
why do u deserve the right to tell people how they should
live their life?

Fair Warning:

murdercakes — 2010-04-21T22:57:00Z

u want me? im not easy
im a mess ive been broken down nd put
thru more shit then u kno nd when i say that
I'm actually a person who means it
I'm emotional i get jealous I'm not open about my feelings
don't get me wrong i work on getting over that shit
everyday but its not easyyyy! im a stress case a
nevous wreak i have a few close friends nd only two
people can say they truly know me. i have issues i know
but at least i know that its nothing for me to deny
i have my ups and my downs and i should prolly be
put on meds for bi-polarness i trust no one plain and simple
no one has my full trust cuz everyone is fuckin shady as fuck
i fall for lines...yes i know this im a big sucker for lines
and thats all every guy has ever been just another line
in my story. so you think ur different? your not...why?
just by saying ur different makes you the same
because i dont just want talk every guy can say this or that
i dont want different i just want a simple guy that doesnt
like drama that has flaws of his own a funny guy thats
nice and can appriciate me for me a guy that can be a
true man nd realize im not perfect that i have things i need
to work a guy thats willing to stick thru the highs and lows
i want you to show me you have a place in my heart
learn me care about me become my friend...dont waste my
time cuz that just means ur wasting ur time
u want me u gotta be willing to accept the fact all
my friends r guys im a huge flirt but it doesnt mean shit
im very family orrianted if my friends dont like your ur
prolly guna be cut but most of all i hate liars more then anything
a liar is the worst person out there